Mitt was awake during the night vomiting. So we had a restless night. He's sleeping more during the day but his sleep is often interrupted by dreams, hallucinations or nausea & vomiting. I wish I could do more for him. He can only sleep on his back so he is getting sore.
Hospice talked with us about bringing in the hospital bed now, so he can change sleep positions and be more comfortable and they said it would also help him get in and out of bed. He said he wants the bed in the master bedroom so today we will be rearranging furniture to make room.
I think it will help him physically but may hurt him mentally...I don't know if either of us are ready to accept the sight of a hospital bed; it's just a bed but it makes a statement on it's own.
Hospice and the hospital bed seem to go together...they feel like the beginning of the final chapter. Even though we both know it's best for him physically; we've talked about it and we both agree we aren't really ready mentally.
Either way we need to prepare, we need to make space and allow in what needs to happen. Resisting this next step will only make this part of our journey tougher. We don't need tougher, we need to stay focused on his comfort and let go.
I love Mitt with all my heart and I will do everything in my power to make his time here as upbeat and as happy as I can. The very best gift he has given me was pure happiness. He shared his happy times with me, allowed me to have my own and together we created many laughs and happy times.
So maybe if we just change the way we view the hospital bed, we will be fine. After all... isn't it really just a high tech sleeping recliner.
It is a high tech sleeping recliner....
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High tech for sure! Sending thoughts and prayers, xoxo, Tiff
ReplyDeleteSending positive thoughts and prayers your way, Lord we ask that you grant Mike and Chris a peaceful day. Amen
ReplyDeleteWe are feeling so helpless here. We would love to come pray with you guys. We ask God everyday for a miracle for Mike, and I know God is answering our prayers, maybe not in the way we want but He knows what is best. We are tearfully giving this to God, our hearts go out to you both. We love you guys more than you know.
ReplyDeleteWe had hospice bring 2 beds, one for Mom and one for the kids to play on, they loved it. I slept in one and we faced each other and during the day we had many good talks about heaven. Please call and let us know what we can do. luv ya Tom and Pam
Chris and Mike...As I read Chris' blog, I am inspired by your love for each other. I have a love like that with Brian and I cannot imagine what you must be going through. Your strength and love for each other is amazing. I have been praying like crazy for you as so many have. I hope the love and prayers you feel from family and friends lifts you up. Since I have been praying for you at my Catholic school, everyone knows I have a friend that needs prayers for cancer. The other day one of the nuns gave me a pin to give you and told me to tell you to pray to Saint Peregrine. He is the saint of cancer. So I will be praying the novena to Saint Peregrine even though I am not Catholic...I hope all your friends and family will join me. There is a reason she gave that pin to me last week...I am so sorry I took this long to tell you. Kim O
ReplyDeleteGoogle prayer to St. Peregrine and/or novena..We should all say prayer and Mike should say novena...all you Catholics know this :) Kim
ReplyDeleteMike and Chris, "Let go and let God" as he has a plan for you. Jean's mom told her while in hospice that "we all have a cross to bear" and that is our way to heaven. We pray for comfort, strength and peace for you and Mike as you go forward. We love you! Bill and Jean
ReplyDeleteMike and Chris, it is so hard to find words. I am thinking of both of you and praying constantly. I am glad you went to grief counseling sister and I hope you continue to go. You know if there is anything you need, call me and I will be there. I am going to google the saint that Kim mentioned and find that prayer. It will be my mantra. Anything for you guys! Love you both. Be strong! Carol
ReplyDeleteChris, I commend you on your strength you have provide thus far, its your love and faith you have in God that is helping you thru this, your husband was so blessed to have such an understanding human being to be his wife, continue to send prayers your way, Blessings to you both as you get thru this tough time in both your lives. Thinking of you, continue to pray and stay strong!!! Kay
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