This post is difficult for me to write. I haven't posted for a few days because I am and always have been an optimist and I so very badly want to say... great news, Mike looks great and feels better and I am filled with hope and he is stronger everyday and every one's prayers are working and... we are living happily ever after. I can't say those things so I haven't been able to bring myself to post.
He is still my Mitt, last night during his vomiting and his pain...he's comforting me. Just seeing him in pain and seeing him vomit makes me feel like a coward. He bravely faces his days and nights and I want to hide. Not from him but from the truth. So I can pretend just so long, I can tell myself he is getting better only so long and every day reality hits hard. I try to believe this is something we will overcome together but then I am faced with his pain and his limits and I buckle. I fold. I cry. I scream.
When was the last time he really had a normal day, a true normal day, not just a normal lunch or a brief bit of normal but an entire day of his life the way it used to be? The answer is months; it's been months since he has had the kind of day we all take for granted. Do we all realize how truly blessed we are to go about our day doing the things we want to do and some of the things we don't but are still able to do?
I feel the need to end this with light. The good news is...the amount of love and support we feel from our family and friends overwhelms us to tears and fills our hearts and sustains us. We will forever be grateful for all of you and your thoughts and prayers. I have printed out every comment, email or message and have hung them up all over Mike's office. Daily he is surrounded by all of you.
Thank you for blessing us.
Chris and Mike,
ReplyDeleteI was saddened to read your post. I wish there was a magic cure for this dreadful disease, especially when it strikes someone as wonderful as Mike. I was not surprised to read that he tries to comfort you while he struggles with his pain and sickness. That's the kind of man Mike is, always thinking of others instead of himself. We continue to think of you and to pray for you each and every day. We love you! Dale and Michelle
I was hoping you would say "no news is good news". Hang in there and love each other as much as you can. You are allowed to fold and cry and scream. That doesn't make you weak, that makes you human. You both are holding each other up, which is the truest testament to what wonderful people you both are…and what a wonderful couple you are. Take each minute in stride and do your best - that is all you can expect of yourself. This is your journey together and you are following the path with more grace and compassion than most people could even hope to. Your love inspires me. You are constantly in my thoughts and the prayers haven't stopped, I promise. xoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteIt is as difficult to read as I'm sure it was to write Chris. No words can express comfort." Father God, I thank you for comforting my friends. Give them the strength and courage that only you can give them. In Jesus name, Amen."
ReplyDeleteBlessings~ Richere
Chris just want to let you know that prayers are sent daily to you and your husband. May the Lord continue to give you the strength to provide the great support, love, kindness you have given to Mitt and may the Lord soon give him strength to get better to have a a normal day. Here's a quote hope you find some comfort in Philippians 4:19 My God will use his wonderful riches in Christ Jesus to give you everything you need. Blessings to you both Always Kay
ReplyDeleteHi Mike and Chris,
ReplyDeleteOur Hope Christian Church family has pledged to daily pray for you and your family. The Mens group is constantly praying on Monday nights for healing and peace. Jackie and I will always love you and lift you both and your family up in prayer.
A verse that I hold on to during tough times, is Phil 4: 6-7: Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Roland and Jackie
God says "Behold, I will bring to it health and healing, and I will heal them: and I will reveal to them an abundance of peace and truth." Jeremiah 33:6
ReplyDeleteChris its sounds like Mike is having healing episodes, Gerson says they will be flu like symptoms, that is the body getting rid of the cancer. They say they can start at about 2 weeks after doing the therapy. Tell the doctor to get him Marinol for pain and vomitting, and it has cancer fighting properties too. That will be better than Norco, tell her he wants to try it. We love you guys Pam & Tom
I wish I had words of comfort for you. You no doubt have so many emotions going on, and you are entitled to feel any & all of them, and you have to let them out as well! Both of you are on mind constantly & I send my prayers. I ask God to help you & give you what you need to get you through the rough times.
ReplyDeleteEach day we pray for you and your family. We are genuinely touched by your strength and support for each other during such a difficult time.
ReplyDeleteWith love, Matt and Mallory
Chris and Mike,
ReplyDeleteI think of you every day and pray for the both of you. You are both an inspiration - your strength, your tenacity to fight this awful disease and your complete love and devotion for one another are absolutely amazing. I love you and want to thank you for reminding me every day how important it is to be thankful for my health, family and friends. I hope this little message brings a smile to your faces as you continue on, and that every day you find some comfort in knowing that your optimism and courage are incredibly powerful in both of your lives and in the lives of others.
Luke 1:37 "For with God nothing shall be impossible."
xo Christy Watkins
Chris and Mike:
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you both. I believe in the power of prayer and that miracles can and do happen. I hope you can find moments of peace and clarity. We are big on organic produce and juicing here. I've done fruit "fasts/feasts" and have lots of good juicer recipes. I'd be happy to go on an organic fruit and veggie hunt with you in Sacramento... or would be happy to pick up some of the freshest in-season organic/local produce from the Sacramento Food Co-Op and deliver it to you.
Hugs, Mike & Chris I am praying for you 2. Xoxo
ReplyDeleteOur thoughts and prayers are with you every day. May you both get through this one day at a time. Remember you have lots of love & support from all of your friends and family. Like everyone else I so wish there was something we could do for you to make this all go away.
ReplyDeleteStill thinking about you guys and praying for you....Dave
ReplyDeleteCheck out Farm Fresh To You, that's who I used while in Folsom. Love you, Jessica
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