When Mike first started having pain and before we knew what the cause was, I comforted myself by constantly repeating "focus on what is, not what if's". What is...he's here, he's okay, he's still smiling and still laughing, he's just uncomfortable but he's okay. Then as we received information the "what is" changed but I still managed to keep the "what if's' at bay. Now I don't want to face the "what is"...I want to turn back the clock to a time when Mike had his health and I'll say "why don't you get a scan" and he will, because that's him. He has always been the most health conscious person I've ever met. So he will have the scan and they will see a seed of cancer and they'll remove it and it will never get the chance to spread or to grow into a tree.
This is a first for us, a reality we can't comprehend. It feels as if we've been scripted for someone else's roles in a movie we don't want to be in. I remember when Mike's dad, Paul past away last year we talked about how you think you have empathy for others and realize you never understood at all until you live through it. It's impossible to grasp the depth of despair I feel at the news of my Mitt's cancer unless you've lived through it. I hope this makes you all love and appreciate each other more. I hope you take care of your health and realize that taking the very best care of you is the best gift to give those who love you. That's one of the many reasons this is so hard for me to accept; Mike did everything in his power to ensure his health. I pray that his efforts and all his work towards his health will somehow benefit him now.
He slept well last night, he still had the effects of the anesthesia so he didn't even need a morphine. He continues to make me laugh and smile and he holds me when I cry. I'm so very grateful to be his wife.
Thank you all for your love and encouragement.
Chris, Mike,
ReplyDeleteI am at a loss for words and I am deeply saddened by all this news, my thoughts and prayers go out to both of you and your family. Mike, you are a great friend and I love you brother. I am there for you if I can help in anyway. – Ron Lehman
Chris and Mike
ReplyDeleteI can't beleive this is happening, seems so unreal. Sitting here not knowing what to say and trying to type threw the tears. Does Mike feel up to going to Mexico to the Gerson Institute, you both should go for 2 weeks, if I had to do it again I would go there. They have a program you can do at home, I'm checking into it. I know how much better I feel and I'm only doing one small part of the program. love you both so much Pam Schoenfelder
Chris/Mike
ReplyDeleteMy heart is broken along with you. I've been blessed to work with Mike and Jon. I would like to give a word of encouragement, God is still faithful, we may not always know why, but He never leaves or forsakes us. Only He can give the strength that is needed. Bethel Church, in Redding, is known to be a cancer free zone and many fly from around the world to attend their healing services on Saturdays. Please visit their website for more information. Their testimonies alone are encouraging.
In Continued Prayer,
Richere
Mike,
ReplyDeleteHearing about your "situation" has knocked the wind out of me!
Talking with you yesterday and sleeping on it over night I believe things happen for a reason - not sure I understand or agree with how/why things happen but I know you are a good person with a great family support team.
Your path will be challenging but at the same time filled with love! Know that my family and I are thinking about you and hoping for a speedy recovery. Please do not hesitate to contact me at any time.
Chris,
Even though we have never met I must say I have appreciated your updates. Reading about Mike (Papa Mitt)and your detailed comments not only proved Mike married up but brought a small smile.A positive attitude, a strong family and a little humor can do wonders! My family and I are praying and hoping for Mike and his family.
Jerry & Linda Hunt
When I heard Mike was not going to do chemo, my heart sank. Then I read up on the Gerson therapy and I felt comforted. Comedian Dick Gregory got a similar prognosis many years ago and did the same thing. He's been cancer free for years. Whatever you do, do it with gusto. Miracles do happen every day. My thoughts and prayers are constantly with you. God bless you both!
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